One Of These Days I'll Learn

Maybe

I have some aspects about me that sometimes make life difficult. One is that I worry like all get out when I misplace something. It isn't logical to put something where I can't find it!! I need to remember these things!...and I believe it so strongly that I could cause myself some real problems. Oh..... like maybe ..... heart failure.

I may have shed some light on that part of my psyche when I wrote a while back about concern over something that I thought I had done wrong in my book keeping work for the church but it turned out I hadn't.

So I'm thinking - What? Do I enjoy torturing myself?!! Get a grip here!

Well, for the last 1 ½ days I've been looking for some misplaced files. Since they were back from last January I hadn't noticed that they were gone until yesterday. I did have them on computer but the originals were no where to be found! My last try was to go over to the church and see if I might have put them inadvertently with some from a former year. I had my coat on ready to go and I stood there thinking if I didn't get a handle on myself I was going to get downright sick..... Thought...
Pray about this.

I sat down.
As I sat there the thought came - Kneel. I thought - Well I'm sitting - I'm only doing this because I don't have padded knees.
Then the thought......But is that respectful enough?.....Kneel!
True to form, I argue some more...Who's putting that thought in my head, anyway! It's not necessarily God!.....
Then ....
Why argue? - Kneel!
O.K. - I did.
Dear Lord, please help me find those files... (not poetic but - to the point)
I got up and in 5 seconds (or less) I had my hands on those illusive files! (I was eye level with them while I was kneeling.)

It was a humbling experience.